furthermore

To continue some of the thoughts I was having yesterday: I see the needs here as deeply spiritual. However, most people look to materialism and modernization as their sole hope for happiness and security. Not too different from developed countries. Only here, I have observed that when people reach a certain level of success or power, they get more vindictive and surly than ever. They seem to develop amnesia about how it felt to be the little guy, and do the very things they hated when they themselves were weak and defenseless.

My personal theory is that when they attain the status or position they had so longed for, they find themselves still just as empty, afraid, and lost. Therefore they turn on others, to make them feel small and hopeless. Only in that way can they bolster their self-esteem, even if just for a moment.

That's my take on it.

Good day. Exercise, shower, meeting. Got to spend some time connecting with and coaching a very neat person. Home, then to the restaurant. Ate a burrito —after I photographed it for an ad in a travel guide, of course. Fun. On my way home I only half-heartedly tried to snap some photos for the blog tonight for three reasons: 1) I just wasn't inspired, 2) people are hard to shoot—they keep moving! and 3) my camera battery was almost dead from the burrito photo shoot. Maybe I'll post one of the burrito photos.

Kind of hoping the producers of the travel guide will like my work and call on me to do more photography or design for them. That would be cool.

While I was at the restaurant, a customer broke a glass. The staff was all in a dither, trying to figure out how much to charge them for the loss of the item. When I finally figured out what they were doing, I told them you don't charge for broken items, and reassured the customer that it was OK. The staff was confused. They told me THEY have to pay if they break anything. I told them yes, that's because they're EMPLOYEES. You don't charge customers for breakage. Ha! Long way to go before understanding customer service.

Back home, prepared and sent off the burrito photos, and also prepared some business card files to send, so that the company can get them printed. Wrote various e-mails. Helped Mr. prepare lentil soup.

With about an hour for it to simmer, I was at a loss for what to do next. I have a long "to do" list, but was low on motivation. I just wanted to sit and be quiet and God seemed to ask me, well, what was wrong with that? I figured it was a waste of time. God asked me why I felt like I always had to be accomplishing something. Why not just sit and talk with Him and rest? I must admit, it was hard to do. Why are we so driven to achieve???

Anyway. I tried. Numerous interruptions, including 2 phone calls. But I did try. Supper, TV. Now blogging, next: time with the kitty, then to bed.