heavy

So, it should have been a great day.

Had an awesome morning with God, quiet at a coffee shop. Home to work on decorations for the banquet. Out for a coaching meeting with a super young lady. Back home, more decorations. I think I cut out over 300 stars today.

All stuff I really enjoy. In fact, the next few days are going to be full of  fun creativity.

But Mr. was just really struggling today. He was very discouraged and hopeless. He lost his temper at one point, which he NEVER does. He is the most gentle, even-keel guy I know. I have actually only seen him like this maybe 2 or 3 times in the whole time we've been married.

I am sure there is something deeper than the surface aggravation he was dealing with today. He just never reacts like this. What is causing him so much pain and frustration? I know this has been building up for a while. I wish I could help, but I don't know how.

My heart is heavy for him. I am learning to cling to Jesus alone for my security and well-being. But I just love my husband so much. I hurt when he hurts.

So, anyway. It's late. I have a LOT of decorating to do tomorrow and need to get an early start. The kitty feels neglected. She really made me smile a few times today when I needed it. So, off to give her some love and then to bed.