Hiding

Helped to facilitate a training all day today. My presentation lasted a good part of the morning. I am also responsible for mentoring/coaching 5 other women. For the whole year. Yeah. What a commitment.

The typical insecurities bubble up. What if they don't like me? (What if I don't like them??) What if I don't have anything helpful to say? What if I don't know how to encourage them?

And of course, here I am hiding in my room, when I should be out there mingling, mixing, getting to know people better. But honestly. I'm kind of peopled out. Prolonged periods of people time just make me kind of weary. And so it is with a sense of guilt that I've slipped away for some alone time. Especially when it's just a two-day thing. I can push the buttons for two days, right?

Sorry about not blogging last night. The training covers two days and is being held at a "resort" outside of town. We came out a night early to help the organizers get set up. We discussed and prepared late into the evening, and by the time we got back to the room I realized I had never acquired the password for the internet.

I did, however, take a photo of "beauty" yesterday (as well as today), which was the original purpose of the blog. To stop and capture one image of beauty every day. So, I have still stayed true to my plan. (That's why you're getting two photos in this entry.)

OK. Well, the guilt is getting the best of me. My Mr. did the devotional for today; he made me very proud. We get to perform a little skit together tomorrow. I like that. :-) But for now I'm going to go out and try to socialize a little more. Just for maybe an hour or so. Here I go. I can do it.