Well, today I started by snapping at my Mr. and ended the day in the same way. The whole rest of the time I was fine, and we were fine. I just hate it that the day was book-ended by my anger.
I don't quite know what's going on. There is a stinging and discord inside of me, and it poured out on him. Lousy system. I don't know what the matter is, but I need to get down to the heart of it and get rid of it.
The day was very full once again. We did a training most of the day, then I met someone for coaching. Then I made supper and a friend came over for the evening. Good stuff. Satisfying stuff. So why this short fuse?
My photo came easily today. Sometimes I wander through the day shooting randomly at iffy scenarios, hoping that by the end of the day I will have one good shot. But today I found "the shot" and took it. Actually, I took lots of different angles of the same thing. But I knew that was my beautiful photo for today.
Then do you know what I did? I left my camera at home the rest of the day. It was kind of like, "check," got that done. I can stop looking for beauty now. Which is not the way I wanted this exercise to play out. I want to have eyes that continually seek out beauty, whether or not I have my photo.
That being said, soaking up that beautiful moment and capturing in on my camera was an exquisite experience.
So tomorrow I really need to spend some time with God. Need to get this irritability sorted out and dealt with. Need to reconnect with Him and regain His perspective.
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