synergy

First of all, pathetic photo for being in a place with lovely gardens and landscaping. But today was full of meetings and work, and we hardly got out to enjoy the scenery. I am determined to get up early tomorrow morning to get out and enjoy it a bit before things start up again.

Second of all, the meetings have been really encouraging. I know we say we believe the Holy Spirit lives in each of us and guides us all, but a few times now with this group, I have seen real proof. We broke up into small groups on and off throughout the day. Each group was supposed to discuss different topics, but somehow when we came back together our reports seemed to circle around similar themes or lessons. The recurrence of specific ideas, as well as the unity in the group, seems to be too strong to just be "coincidence."

Third of all, I had a few tinges of regret today that I would not be a part of this group much longer. Just two more months or so, I guess. They are all really neat, quality people. We're working together on something I believe is valuable and worth-while.

Oddly, I also know how to fit into this group, in spite of the fact that we come from so many different nationalities and backgrounds. They appreciate what I bring, I appreciate learning from them. It doesn't mean that we always see eye-to-eye, but we all respect each other enough to disagree gracefully.

I have never really found a way to fit into the national culture here. Sadly, Mr. and I have often also felt out-of-place with our mission organization. It seems to have been 12 years of being on the outside. And so, for me at least, finding a fit at last seems a bit bitter-sweet, with such a short time left to enjoy it.

But I still feel confident that our choice to leave here is the right one. Mixed feelings and all, I know it is the next step that we are supposed to take on our journey.