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Reason #4—2 glasses of wine, and #51—fell asleep watching TV. (Yep, posting in the morning again.)

So, I pushed myself hard jogging yesterday. My heart felt pretty good, my legs didn't give out. The thing that got me was the heat. Even though I got out before sunrise, and the sky was overcast to boot, it just felt stifling. I got that prickly feeling in the back of my head. It took me a while to figure out why I felt so hot, but then I realized that there was absolutely NO breeze. I was confirmed in this conclusion when I passed a guy smoking on a park bench. Instead of drifting off, the smoke just hovered all around him. He was engulfed in a cloud of smoke. That's some very still air.

Home and showered, then to the doctor to show her the results of the echo cardiogram. She still recommended 24 hours with a holter monitor, just to be sure. I think I like her. She's quite thorough. Better to be safe than sorry. Besides that, these tests are significantly cheaper here than they would be in the US, and we might as well do them while we still have insurance.

The clinic didn't have a holter monitor, though, so I had to go back to the national-run hospital where I got the echo done. Only this time I discovered that they have a whole separate cardiology building. The cardio specialist wasn't too thrilled that I had gotten the echo done at the "regular" hospital. You had to be sharp to catch it, because all he said (in a very Asian way) was, "I guess I'll trust they knew what they were doing.," as he looked at the results. :-)

So, spent the rest of the day taped up with wires and pads and stuff. The whole contraption is portable, so I was able to go home with it. It wasn't bad, because I didn't have to go out much, and had a lot of computer work to do, so I was pretty quiet and still the whole day. Of course, my heart felt just fine all day. Whatever.

Mr. made a great supper and we had a quiet evening. Did you know that goat cheese and white wine taste AWESOME together? Once again, I'm blown away by his culinary sophistication.

I'm not feeling as down as I have been. I'm still swamped with work and the future is still unclear. But I don't feel as worried right now. I have better perspective, trusting that God knows what He's doing, and feeling encouraged to just keep moving forward as well as I can. I suppose this will sort of come and go; sometimes we hold onto faith and truth better than other times. I'm just glad to have an upward swing in attitude. It's a bit of a relief.