balance

Yes, I'm struggling to find it, define it, maintain it. Balance is so tricky.

I decided to make the crock pot meal yesterday, as well as tend to a few other tasks that were waiting to be done, and didn't get to the calendar until AFTER supper. Yikes! A whole day gone.

Then today, another dilemma. Do I stop and have my half-day with God, or use those 3 to 4 hours to make progress on the calendar? Well, about mid-day it was obvious what the greatest need was. I was so exhausted in body, mind, and soul. I knew I needed that time with God. And so I stopped. And it was honestly very refreshing.

I put some time in on the calendar here and there, bits and pieces, 1/2 hour now, an hour then. And would you believe it…things are moving forward pretty well. I'm afraid, however, that my overly-optimistic self is not quite in touch with reality, and that at some point the last-minute panic is going to hit. But for now I'm enjoying the hope that I might finish this project with grace and not a mad dash at the end. Come on—it could happen.

Right now I'm at a resort about 1/2 hour out of town. For the next two days I'll be in meetings with the our church council. Not only will there be little time for calendars, I will need to put them out of my mind so that I can be very present for the meetings. But anyway, it's pretty nice here. Quiet. Lots of flowers and trees. A swimming pool.

Only things missing are Mr. and the kitty. They're keeping each other "company" at home. I'm sure I miss them more than they miss me.

And I'm tired. And I just might get over 6 hours of sleep tonight if I go to bed soon. Which would be wonderful. So, good night.

Oh. And a word about the photos. The first one is from yesterday. I thought, "How often does one actually see a cobbler these days?" And he was in the middle of cobbling shoes. So I snapped him. The second one? Well, I told you this place has lots of trees and flowers.