deflated

I hate feeling very upbeat and positive, only to have someone burst it like a balloon on a cactus.

And that happens quite frequently when an optimist like me is married to a pessimist like Mr. (although he prefers to be known as a "realist").

I woke up this morning very encouraged by the past few days which we spent with our director. I thought things went better than I had even dared hoped for. Then I made the mistake of asking Mr. about his impressions of the meetings. He saw many negatives and listed them off despondently.

Whoosh. My good mood was gone. I was simply deflated. Not because I believed all of his analysis, necessarily, but because I had so wanted him to be encouraged, too.

And besides, it takes work to stay positive, even for those of us who are naturally inclined to do so. His glum outlook weighed my light spirits down until they were dragging the ground again.

On top of that, I wanted to stay and enjoy the lovely surroundings of the hotel until we needed to check out at noon. (Our director left at 8.) But Mr. had lots of responsibilities and work to get done, so we checked out at the same time as our guest.

By the time we reached home (a 5 minute drive at best) I was grumpy and depressed. The kitty, however, was very thrilled with the arrangement. She gets very lonely when we're away. She rolled and purred and improved my mood some.

I sort of fumbled through the day, getting a few things done, but wasting a good bit of time in between productivity. Frustrating to just muddle through like that.

Before supper we attended a Biblical Hebrew class. I am way out of my depth in the material, but actually manage to hold my own when we do exercises in class. It's all review for Mr., who has studied it before. In any case, it was a very enjoyable time an we came out feeling somewhat better.

And supper was just nice. Relaxed. Ate at one of the pho shops on the way home. We have our favorite, and they are coming to know us by now. Yeah for pho! A true comfort food.

Then home to more kitty antics, which make me laugh. She's resting up right now but I feel sure it's only until she gets her second wind.…

As for me, I don't think a second wind is in store for tonight, so I should just get on to bed. Night!