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So, last night the electricity went a bit crazy. We had dips in power, so that the light bulbs went very dim and the fans hardly spun. Then we would have huge surges, the lights gleaming too brightly and the fans whirling faster than they were meant to.

It lasted all night and part of the morning. I don't know what caused it, but it shorted out one of our surge protectors. But, that's why we have them, I guess. It kept the TV and fridge from blowing up—which is a good thing.

In a way, my emotions have been mirroring our electricity recently. Especially in regard to this move. I have times of excitement and optimism, followed by rather sad times. Up and down, cheery and gloomy. There are so many good things to look forward to. Also so many good things to leave behind.

Bah. The bittersweet nature of life and change and learning and leaving.

On a fun note, I bought a winter coat today. You will not understand the significance of this achievement until you know that 1)  I haven't had a new winter coat since before I was married and 2) The weather today was in the high 80's, the temps in the market were over 90, but I tried the coat on anyway, to make sure everything felt right. The only thing that didn't feel right was having a heavy winter coat on in those oven-like conditions.

Mr. and I also had a good laugh during coat-buying (he got one too) because we were very clumsy zipping them up. I never realized zipping up bulky winter coats was a skill one could lose. But there's no denying that we were both quite awkward about it.

And then there were the two good-bye meals we had today. Oh, not that we won't see those people again before we go, but it was the "let's have some quality time together" undercurrents that gave the meals a sense of poignancy. And I didn't take photos of the people we were with. And I kind of regret it.