I jogged on a treadmill for the first time today. Let me tell you, is it a completely different experience from jogging on the pavement! I had trouble getting the hang of it. However, it measured my distance, which I have not been able to do up to this point. I only went 2.8 kilometers, and was pretty put out. I had hoped I was more ready for the 3k. But I'm telling myself that my struggles stemmed from the unusual feel of the treadmill. I'm sure that when the run comes, I will push through the whole way. I'm pretty stubborn.
I worked most of the morning on the interior design for the small restaurant I get to decorate. It was very enjoyable. I'm just a little concerned about billing for this job. It's for a friend, and she hasn't talked at all about payment or getting a quote, and I feel awkward about bringing it up.
I am also feeling sort of awkward about this blog. I'm afraid people who read it will think all I do is play with my cat, get massages, and exercise. Oh, I know I write about other things, but I can imagine readers thinking, "What kind of job does this person have?" Well, it's one that's very fluid. We're free to define it ourselves and determine how we go about it. And unfortunately, right now we're sort of floundering, feeling lost and directionless. That isn't a good place to be. I have a vague, although constant, sense of guilt and anxiety, because I don't feel like we're living up to the expectations of others or, even worse, up to the promises we made. Blah!
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