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So, we needed toilet paper. That's all we needed, really. I told Mr. I'd go out and get it, while he went off to a meeting. I needed the extra motivation to get out of the house, anyway. Felt rather despondent today.

One thing that usually makes me feel better is to fix food. I think it's the combination of a creative act, combined with care for others, that makes cooking deeply satisfying to me.

I looked through recipes and settled on a yummy chili soup. It has white wine and bacon in it, so it has to be good! I made my shopping list and got all ready to walk out of the door, just as it started raining. Not hard, just a steady sprinkle. I did some computer work for about a half an hour, hoping it would stop, but it didn't. Neither did it get heavier, though, so I decided to just go out in it.

I trudged through the rain and got everything on my list, only to realize as I was almost home that I had forgotten—you guessed it—the toilet paper. What a one-drawer loser I am.

Other things that made me feel down today:

The kitty. I am worried about what to do with her when we return to the US. I want to keep her with me, but know we'll be moving around a lot. I don't want to put her through psychological trauma. Also, she has a mystery cut on her cheek right behind her whiskers. We don't have any other little critters around; where did that come from?

E-mail. I wrote forty-plus e-mails yesterday (no exaggeration), and haven't heard much back from people. I know this sounds silly, but I really get discouraged when I'm looking for responses to e-mails and don't get them.

Rain. Not that rainy weather discourages me, but I took my camera with me, hoping to get a good shot while I was out walking. However, due to the steady drizzle I didn't see much to shoot, and didn't want to get the camera out in the damp weather anyway. I think September has been a poor month for good photos.

Anyway, here's hoping I feel better tomorrow. I am not typically given to staying down for long. But like Mr. says, no one can feel absolutely happy 100% of the time. Guess today was my day for it.